The Scenic Route....

Do you ever feel like absolutely nothing ever goes right for you? OMG... Right now I just want to sit and repeatedly bang my head against a wall... and down copius amounts of the cheapest red wine I can lay my hands on.. They get you drunk faster and the hangover is more painfull so you remember you are alive..

Every single step I have made towards "my new beginning" has been riddled with potholes.. From issues to getting passports, police clearances, and now my health.. I'm starting to feel a complete and utter failure.. Whilst it may turn out to be absolutely nothing.. I have this huge deep uneasy feeling.. And I cannot drink to calm my nerves.. NO DRINKING before blood test.. Yes I am ranting.. I'm allowed to rant.. And since I have no near and dear friend or family member who actually give a flying fuck about whether I am still breathing in the morning; this is where I shall vent my frustrations..

Come on.. giggle with me, at me.. Makes me feel a little better..

Thats All......

The following was written by a very near and dear friend of mine.. I think it's absolutely beautifull and wanted to share..

I follow the steps I see In front of me
They are deep and well-defined
they show an undefined but straight path
What has gone through me will never return
future won't let me look back
I just walk, I don't evolve, I just walk
Animals return by my side
They try communicate, each one in its own way
But I can't understand
I feel alone on this irrational planet
To create or just observe
I keep waiting on this desert made of ideas

My head is heavy but empty
Everything around me is void, without movement
without perspectives
The night invades the sky
That darkness the dry ground
Making my shadow join the big stain thats forming
My steps on skulls of generations that have not formed
I hear painful cries of wars that are to come
To create everything again, from the beginning
To teach new minds
To awake a sleeping giant buried
On the ashes of disgrace
Its scornful the way I live
I look well, I think I'm well
Thats all...